i'm in a hell of my own making

recently i've been getting into poetry to cope with my declining mental health.
it's worked better than therapy so far, mainly because poetry works in the moment.
therapists really just say "fix it yourself", while poetry excuses me doing nothing
i'm pretty sure i need help, but the help i need involves effort and drugs
i'm not alone, i'm just a piece of shit who can't be bothered to open up.
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